Graduate..?

Many wonder what it would feel to actually graduate from a poly student life. Well, i dont even dare to think about it when im still studying. But now that i have, i would have say...

The feeling of being a graduate actually feels.. Lost.

Well, im not speaking as a whole lot that would actually feel lost, just like how i would feel. Some already had their future planned out, well for females since males have had to serve 2 years of National Service after graduating. They still got a good 2 years to think through what they wanted in life, well the most will be that they continue serving the nation right, how hard would that be.

As for the females, we either continue studying as a University student, or we go out to work to earn money. That's about it right. Many of those i knew chose the latter as a option instead of continuing the path of a student. Me, being the obvious, chose the latter path too.

Here's another issue, choosing the path of going to work instead of being a student.

There's obviously no aims, no goals in my life. I dont even know what i wanna work for a living. I dont even know what i wanted in life to state the obvious. People around me have been asking me the same question, 「What i wanna work as?」, not only them, even i question myself the same question but never giving a answer to that question reason being i dont even know what i want in life.

So, they asked people around to look out for a job for me and then they turn around and ask me 「What do you like to work as? What attracts you more?」, it's just another question i dont have an answer as well. They help look out for jobs for me, i know it's a good thing because i dont have to go job hunting myself and have got better job opportunities, but i dont know where to start or even how to start. I dont know what i wanted.

Aunt was sort of "counselling" me about this yesterday and asking me to think through it. Well, what she said makes sense in every aspects, i wont deny that. It sort of kept me thinking, 「I have to go past all these fears that i have to keep me going on」 right? The fear of having to go through the scary interviews alone, the fear of having to go through things alone after getting in to the company, the fear of having to go through the "complicated" world scares me too much.

That's how lost it is to be a graduate, if u are in the same plight as me, the no aims no goals life after studying and decides to not continue that path of a student when years of it are spent as a student and suddenly everything needs a change.

How many actually dont know what you can do with that Diploma Certificate of yours?

안녕!!

Be healthy, Goodbye :)
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